For the last two days I've been wandering around my house (which doesn't take long, it's tiny) in my jammies, unable to do very much of anything. I've been having, I think, a migraine but without the killer pain. Thank God for big favors!
My head felt very strange, and yesterday for about an hour I had what I believe was a migraine aura, something I've only experienced in the very lightest, smallest manifestation.
This aura nearly blinded me. I couldn't see to read, drive or use the computer or basically do anything. Scared me so bad that I tried to call my boyfriend, thinking, "If I'm going to have a stroke I want to get to the hospital BEFORE it happens." He wasn't available, though, and so I sat on the bed and meditated, hoping that the thing, which looked like a curved, nearly circular bit of strange waviness covering the whole left side of my vision and impinging on the right, would go away and stop blocking my vision. It seemed like it was on the left side, I'd been having a migraine on the right... I also hoped it wasn't a detached retina or something horrible, but I don't have high blood pressure and hadn't poked myself in the eye recently, either accidentally or on purpose. I was tempted to poke my eyes out when I saw a certain email containing what I like to call the TMI (Too Much Information) Halloween costumes (for instance, that Spiderman suit is PAINTED on that guy, Spiderman didn't go around with his dangly bits blue.....either that or the guy's a naked Smurf dressed like Spiderman). You'd know it if you'd seen that particular email.
No, I hadn't done anything stupid lately so I know it was a brain thing, because I closed one eye, and checked. Still there. Closed the other eye. Still there. Closed both eyes. The aura was still there. Yep, it was in my brain.
After about twenty minutes of meditation the thing finally went away. I was just left with a backache, sore nerves over the bridge of my nose (neuralgia) and a truly strange feeling in the head, a little nausea, dizziness and total exhaustion.
I felt much better by this afternoon, after basically wasting all of Friday and Saturday doing nothing but computer games and reading and zoning out. I'm going to sleep as long as possible and hope that I wake up with a Good Brain tomorrow morning.
