I try not to spew a bunch of drivel and keep posts coherent and to the point.
This is not going to be one of those posts.
Let's see, I did the laundry the day I posted about it. Due to a trip Down South that turned out to be just about as expensive as I thought it would be, I didn't do laundry for two months. It is nice to know I have enough underwear for two months, but geez. I also figured out how many of those need to be thrown out, too. Yikes.
Two months of laundry equals one triple loader, three double loaders and a single machine. All in all it cost me about $30 to wash and dry.
Today I will go and finish the job, in that somehow I made it to the laundromat with only one pair of pants to wash. Having all four or five of my pants hanging over a chair in the bedroom so that I could pick the cleanest every day, I forgot to put them in the laundry basket. ::bangs head on wall::
In other matters....
I came by a free copy of a book called Escape from Utopia by William Olins, about his ten years in Synanon. If you are younger and never heard of Synanon, or don't remember it from back in the day, it was a cult that started out as a drug rehab place. A megalomaniac named Chuck Dederich started it in Southern California. The entire "program" revolved around "The Game," which was what I consider an extremely irresponsible type of peer counseling, where people could scream at each other and use any sort of language they felt like. Kind of a cross between Primal Screaming and peer counseling. The only rules were no violence and no threats of violence. I think being screamed at is violence, myself. It's certainly abuse.
Regardless, it was the kind of "tough love" that helped turn around some addicts. The problem was that if you left, you were scorned, and if you stayed, you were stuck with their wacky society and had to toe the line constantly. Live revolved around the latest "brainstorm" of their fearless leader, Dederich.
Synanon no longer exists in the US, though there are references to a Synanon "house" still functioning in Germany. Violence was done by Synanon members, as well as members of the public, and the whole thing collapsed due to IRS problems in 1989.
This has brought to mind for me the other cults that I have had experience with. I never knew anyone in Synanon, but the descriptions of The Game remind me somewhat of Re-Evaluation (Co-Counseling) Counseling though far less safe and far less thought out than RC. I was involved with RC for five or six years, but quit due to my natural non-cult inclinations. When I was being harangued by co-counselors for not being involved enough and not going to workshops enough, I told them that I didn't live to counsel, I counseled in order to live better. Eventually I just quit, deciding that I had gotten out of it everything I could and moved on.
There is an addiction to catharsis that I think happens with those kinds of counseling, both the Synanon Game and RC, and other types of counseling as well, even talk therapy as done by most mental health professionals. There is a point where you identify the garbage you are carrying around, you work through it to the point where you can stand off and look at it, and then you either learn to live with it or take it out!
What I saw happening in RC that I didn't like was the creation of false memories by poor counseling, and a lot of wallowing around in garbage best dealt with. When you wallow, you actually create more garbage. And so you have to go back and keep counseling, etc.
As a survivor of extreme child abuse I know that it never goes away. People who think counseling is going to make something go away are living in a dream, and I think this is one way they get hooked into cults. Nothing is going to make someone undead, unaddicted, or completely healed. We live with our scars and they make us who we are. Being healthy with scars is possible! It is when people want to have the scars erased that cults can get a foothold.
Way back when I learned TM when it only cost $75 to do so. I never went to any other meetings and was only "checked" twice. I meditate to this day and use more than the TM method, which is a simple mantra method, by the way, nothing fancy or magical. It has great benefit. Once again I simply ignored the organization when it got wacky, claiming it could teach people to "fly."
Later I took the EST (Eberhard Seminars Training) Training and thought, okay, interesting, but there was no need to make us uncomfortable by not having bathroom breaks. I had about three days of enthusiastic usage of EST jargon, but came to my senses quickly. Being a poor student had unexpected benefits. After the first training I was inundated by phone calls from the EST people exhorting me to take the next training, which of course cost a substantial amount of money. After two weeks of this I got sick of it, and got one of the EST phone people to admit that I didn't NEED THE TRAINING because I ALREADY "GOT IT." I'm so proud of myself! I don't know anyone else who can make this claim.
I seem to have some kind of anti-cult innoculation. I don't know where that comes from or if I was born with a naturally pragmatic nature. Whatever it is, I'm thankful for it, since time on Earth is limited and I am glad I haven't wasted a bunch of time letting someone else control my mind.
My experience is a lot like the experiences related by Synanon "splitees" (those who left Synanon). I got what I needed and moved on. RC helped me out trememdously, through my own efforts and the support of my co-counselors, and for that I am grateful. I'm glad it's there. But like anything else, you have to keep thinking, stay aware, and be honest with yourself.